Often times people are misguided by trending memes and social media posts from everyday people as well as coaches speaking of the awesomeness of spiritual awakenings, finding the light, transcending to a higher consciousness and finding alignment with source thinking that this journey is somehow all rainbows, unicorns and butterflies rarely speaking of the hell it sometimes feels like and quite frankly IS.
My journey felt (and sometimes still does) more like walking on a road of knee deep mud barely able to lift my feet to take the next step while being pelted by hail, wind and rain coming from every direction. There were times I bucked like a wild mustang against some of the lessons and the messages I needed to hear or heed only to be hurled back by what felt like years in my understanding and growth.
I had or sometimes still have to consciously remind myself it's just another transition in my journey. A time between the sweet spots where everything feels off but it's really not. It's in these moments that growth is happening, energy is shifting, people, places and things may be falling away that no longer serve me. This is NOT a state of "stuck" or "brokenness". This is a state of creating space for what I truly need to move forward.
Recently, I experienced a mindblowing Shadow Work experience guided by a friend that completely knocked me out of my comfort zone and had me reeling for days over the revelations that occurred by facing the deepest shadows of myself that I “thought” I had already introduced myself to. Come to find out I had barely scratched the surface prior to this event and now have a whole new direction and understanding of what I want my life to look like moving forward and let me tell you it was so different than ANYTHING I had ever pictured before.
It also brought me great awareness to my own verbiage and I found myself needing to remove a lot of the spiritual “lingo” from my conversations to reach a whole new circle of people which I am and I am mind blown with the connections I am creating because of it. I realize for me that all this spiritual chatter is just another way to divide people when all I really want is to bring awareness to taking personal responsibility while creating conscious awareness to one’s own energetic footprint and how it affects not only themselves but everything and everyone else around them.
It's why I work so deeply with our entire being in my offerings with clients. There is just as much beauty in what we do not want to see as what we do. When we experience it, we begin to become more aware of it, when we become more aware of it, we begin to embody it and when we embody it, we begin to understand it and when we understand it we can then consciously process it, leading to a different level of consciousness to our being. (As we know better, we do better)
This journey is never ending, and the good news is it never will. it's a whirlwind of conscious and unconscious patterns, behaviors and thoughts that have been instilled by generations before us. We were never meant to live in the stories, the traumas or the pain of our ancestors but in fact were meant to live in the dreams, opportunities, and possibilities of our children's children. We are never stuck nor are we ever broken, we are merely in between lessons that need our attention to continue our path to a better understanding of our human experience here and when we are willing to take personal responsibility of our own journey this and only this can create serious changes not only within ourselves, but in the world around us.
Maybe it’s time to ask yourself some questions?
Kelly McCarthy is a passionate universal energy teacher, intuitive practitioner and insightful sacred speaker located in Litchfield County, CT. Though not a published author yet, once in awhile she feels called to write about something that speaks to her.